Entry 7 - 6/2/2025
How about a more positive blog entry, huh? Things are still hard around here, but we're making do. I still find myself checking around corners or under my feet for Owlet. A breeze rustles the blinds a little too hard, and I look to see him there, but... well, y'know. My partner's dad's birthday came and went, which was really hard. Father's Day is coming up, and that's gonna be even harder, I think.
So it's tough. But we're managing.
In more positive news, part of managing is immersing myself in projects for a better future! I'm working on a lot of different things, but the big one at the moment is a charity streamathon I'm going to be doing this month. My streams have been doing really well recently, so I'm feeling optimistic about this one!
From June 16 to June 20, every day, noon-ish to late, I'll be streaming to raise money for queer charity! There's a poll up in my stream Discord and over on Ko-Fi at the moment for which organization to support, and right now, it's looking like Advocates for Trans Equality is going to be our winner. Fitting, since A4TE is akin to the ACLU in that they're fighting for trans rights in the legal and legislative spheres in the US. And, fittingly, second place is split between ACLU and Trans Lifeline - also very worthy causes these days.
Whichever organization ends up winning that poll, it's a week of games, activities, special events, and chaos. I have a couple friends interested in joining me for various segments, which is exciting! I'm still working on the schedule, but I have a rough outline for each day completed. I doubt I'll manage to stick to it, but I'd like to at least keep my dinner block each day solid so I don't end up sick.
Aside from that, my IRL community has a Pride festival coming up. I'm super excited about it. I'm making a shitload of bracelets to give away to people. Which reminds me, I need to buy more elastic, because I ran out again...
But yeah. I'm staying busy, staying silly. Having things to look forward to is critical right now. If I'm going to take care of the people around me, I have to make sure I'm not falling apart myself.
I do think I'm spreading just a touch thin, though. There just aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done that I want to!! Between edits on The Coming Storm, outlining the sequel, the Pages' Journey website project, Advertisement Adversaries (which is kind of on pause), streaming, the charity streamathon, commissions, trying to go outside more, socializing, managing the new Discord, routine spellwork, normal chores, keeping up with hobbies like playing around with Worthy, and... everything else, it's kind of a lot. So far, picking two or three things to work on each day has worked great. The streamathon is taking most of my brainpower at the moment, but I'm finding time for other stuff where I can. It's a lot of long days. I have to remind myself that if I had a Boss who was requiring this much work, I'd fucking quit.
Problem is, I really like the work I'm doing. Like... really, really like it. It's fun and engaging and feels meaningful.
Maybe the beautiful weather this week will manage to draw me away from this fucking keyboard...
Ah, well. Lunchtime.
By Fate's Hand,
Aese.