Entry 9 - 3/29/2026

Well, it's been a while since I last wrote one of these little blog posts, so... let's get into it.

The charity livestream I did back in December was a smash-bang hit. We raised a fucking ridiculous $1,300 for the Trevor Project. Over a thousand dollars, when my last one was just $500 and the one before that didn't even hit $100. I'm still flabbergasted at that number. Holy actual shit.

I have a bunch of stream-based milestone rewards to set up, and I really would like to stream again... but I've managed all of one stream so far this year.

January kicked off with the worst bout of insomnia I've had since my early 20s. Almost a full month of barely sleeping. At one point, I was running off about two hours of sleep out of 48 hours total. Not great! Not great.

I eventually got myself back on track, sleeping and all. I've been sick on and off since then, though, so there's truly no rest for me.

It seems like every time I announce my intentions to Do Anything (even just to myself), my body self-destructs. Migraines, overwhelming fatigue, a bad night's sleep, a day of sensory nightmare -- I can't fuckin' win! It sucks!

I'm very much looking forward to the warmer weather. We're getting a lot of rain in this next week, which isn't really helping my brain any, but it's better than the ice and snow. Not to mention, our gas bill jumped to, like, $180 for the month when it's usually $75ish at this time of year, so the warmer weather is also helping us to not spend a veritable fortune heating our apartment!!!

Anyways. There are good things also, I swear. Like the first anime convention of the year last weekend! I had a ton of fun, and I didn't get sick afterwards. AND I got some rad keychains. Overall, it was a good time! We didn't get to go last year due to, y'know, obvious events, so it was a really healing experience to get to go this year.

Speaking of, the one year anniversaries of my partner's dad passing and, two days later, of Owlet passing just happened. It was... difficult. But it wasn't the end of the world. I'd been dealing with back to back to back migraines all week, which may be part of why it didn't really hit as hard as it might've otherwise. Life really does go on, doesn't it?

Things aren't perfect around here -- my partner's job is miserable due to his Evil Boss, and he's generally stressed all the time. My own health hasn't been great all year, with more downs than ups. It's stressful, but we're making it through one day at a time.

We have tabletop games to prep for! Websites to build! Games to play! Books to read! Friends to chat with! Dates to go on!

I know we'll be alright even if things are rough. By god, I'm tired, but I'm still standing.

By Fate's Hand,

Aese.